I began to gear up for bed for the night in the usual routine and was pretty sleepy and ready for rest.
As I began to close my eyes I felt a prompting from the Holy Spirit to check the news. I asked the Lord if He was speaking to me to do this as I (with the exception of the two areas He's instructed me to pay attention to at all times) have not paid much attention to the news. After I knew it was something I needed to do, I began to look and see what was new. After a while, I got super sleepy.
Asking along the way, I began to feel like I wasn't finding anything specific He may be highlighting for me. So I finally said "Lord, I'm not really sure what you're asking me to look for." By this time my human frame was really begging for sleep. In fact I can honestly say I sounded like a child who didn't want to do what she was told. I tried to reason my way as to why I should just get some rest and look for it in the morning. Of course I know better not to even think like that but I was in fact in an unfolding wrestle with my flesh and in that moment the flesh was winning.
In His mercy, however, He pointed me to exactly where He wanted me looking- earthquakes.
It had been some time since I was actively keeping up with earthquakes so I was like " Oh, of course!". I found that there had been some significant ones over the last couple of days and felt like I found what He wanted me to find. So I said "Ok Lord, I will definitely keep my eyes on this!" and quite honestly I was still feeling like I wanted to sleep. In fact, I was essentially missing what He was sharing with me because my eyes were focused on wanting my physical rest. So afterward when I knew I saw what He wanted me to see, I proceeded to go to sleep-but not without a challenge!
I said to myself 'ok, I have about an hour before my baby needs to eat again, maybe I can catch a little nap now :)'
The smallest of things began to annoy me at this point but in His mercy I was able to at least fall asleep for a few minutes before my little one woke up. When she did I was in that weird half awake state. I went to the restroom grumbling. I mean, at this point, I was just being a real brat about getting some rest as I often do- because it's a real struggle for me sometimes. By now, I was completely walking in the flesh, even in a real sense sassing and complaining to my Heavenly Father. Can you imagine? The audacity. I know better than that!!!!
As soon as I came back from the restroom, I picked up my baby and sat on the bed when the unthinkable happened...
The entire house began to rock back and forth with great force, for about 10 seconds!!!
You better believe I snapped out of my selfish state -QUICK!!! I began crying and repenting. When it was nearly over I carried my baby over to check on our boys. They were still asleep.
My husband was so wide-eyed and had no clue what woke him out of his sleep. He quickly realized what had happened when I confirmed by saying "Yeah, that was an earthquake!" He had never experienced one from the now 4 that me and the children have. I continued to tell him that that one was by far the most powerful one thus far, albeit not the longest in duration. I also told him that the Lord just 'scared me straight', trying to explain what I just wrote. But we were both too out of it to comprehend it all.
I fell asleep repenting and in tears.
This is the second time I get a prompting or word from the Lord that is a personal warning but also a warning to be shared with and for everyone. I believe He allowed all of it, down to my "wanting to stay asleep"; delayed obedience; hesitating at His promptings; walking in the flesh; and even forgetting what time it Really is- to remind us to stay vigilant!! He is so merciful.
I thought it was 'time' for me to go to sleep. But last night, He very firmly reminded me that time is not at all what it once was. And that WE HAVE TO BE READY AT ALL TIMES!!! Not just when it is convenient for us or when we feel like it's OK to go about our own business.
The thing that gets me the most is that over the past few days, including last night, He has confirmed to me that "The time is here".
The "time" is referring to when the sorrows will strike. I believe (as He has been showing me) that there is a time, essentially now, when we are going to face a very trying period before He comes for His bride. This is NOT the Great Tribulation. Whether or not it may in fact feel like it. Everything He has spoken to us is coming to pass, in His time, according to His purposes. This is not something that we can pray away. It is going to happen- at any moment. And as He has said- "In An Instant". Life will be forever changed for everyone. Our mission is the same as it's always been. But this age of grace we have all been privileged and blessed to live in is drawing to a close. Everyone of us has taken His grace and mercy for granted. But His unconditional love remains. He doesn't waiver at our falling short. But I can personally say, in that hour and a half He said so much in His tender mercies that brought me to a deeper repentance and greater sober-mindedness.
There is plenty more I am to share...but as He directs.
Draw near to Him now. There is no time to do it 'later'.
In Christ Alone,
Linda Ruby Edmiston
As I began to close my eyes I felt a prompting from the Holy Spirit to check the news. I asked the Lord if He was speaking to me to do this as I (with the exception of the two areas He's instructed me to pay attention to at all times) have not paid much attention to the news. After I knew it was something I needed to do, I began to look and see what was new. After a while, I got super sleepy.
Asking along the way, I began to feel like I wasn't finding anything specific He may be highlighting for me. So I finally said "Lord, I'm not really sure what you're asking me to look for." By this time my human frame was really begging for sleep. In fact I can honestly say I sounded like a child who didn't want to do what she was told. I tried to reason my way as to why I should just get some rest and look for it in the morning. Of course I know better not to even think like that but I was in fact in an unfolding wrestle with my flesh and in that moment the flesh was winning.
In His mercy, however, He pointed me to exactly where He wanted me looking- earthquakes.
It had been some time since I was actively keeping up with earthquakes so I was like " Oh, of course!". I found that there had been some significant ones over the last couple of days and felt like I found what He wanted me to find. So I said "Ok Lord, I will definitely keep my eyes on this!" and quite honestly I was still feeling like I wanted to sleep. In fact, I was essentially missing what He was sharing with me because my eyes were focused on wanting my physical rest. So afterward when I knew I saw what He wanted me to see, I proceeded to go to sleep-but not without a challenge!
I said to myself 'ok, I have about an hour before my baby needs to eat again, maybe I can catch a little nap now :)'
The smallest of things began to annoy me at this point but in His mercy I was able to at least fall asleep for a few minutes before my little one woke up. When she did I was in that weird half awake state. I went to the restroom grumbling. I mean, at this point, I was just being a real brat about getting some rest as I often do- because it's a real struggle for me sometimes. By now, I was completely walking in the flesh, even in a real sense sassing and complaining to my Heavenly Father. Can you imagine? The audacity. I know better than that!!!!
As soon as I came back from the restroom, I picked up my baby and sat on the bed when the unthinkable happened...
The entire house began to rock back and forth with great force, for about 10 seconds!!!
You better believe I snapped out of my selfish state -QUICK!!! I began crying and repenting. When it was nearly over I carried my baby over to check on our boys. They were still asleep.
My husband was so wide-eyed and had no clue what woke him out of his sleep. He quickly realized what had happened when I confirmed by saying "Yeah, that was an earthquake!" He had never experienced one from the now 4 that me and the children have. I continued to tell him that that one was by far the most powerful one thus far, albeit not the longest in duration. I also told him that the Lord just 'scared me straight', trying to explain what I just wrote. But we were both too out of it to comprehend it all.
I fell asleep repenting and in tears.
This is the second time I get a prompting or word from the Lord that is a personal warning but also a warning to be shared with and for everyone. I believe He allowed all of it, down to my "wanting to stay asleep"; delayed obedience; hesitating at His promptings; walking in the flesh; and even forgetting what time it Really is- to remind us to stay vigilant!! He is so merciful.
I thought it was 'time' for me to go to sleep. But last night, He very firmly reminded me that time is not at all what it once was. And that WE HAVE TO BE READY AT ALL TIMES!!! Not just when it is convenient for us or when we feel like it's OK to go about our own business.
The thing that gets me the most is that over the past few days, including last night, He has confirmed to me that "The time is here".
The "time" is referring to when the sorrows will strike. I believe (as He has been showing me) that there is a time, essentially now, when we are going to face a very trying period before He comes for His bride. This is NOT the Great Tribulation. Whether or not it may in fact feel like it. Everything He has spoken to us is coming to pass, in His time, according to His purposes. This is not something that we can pray away. It is going to happen- at any moment. And as He has said- "In An Instant". Life will be forever changed for everyone. Our mission is the same as it's always been. But this age of grace we have all been privileged and blessed to live in is drawing to a close. Everyone of us has taken His grace and mercy for granted. But His unconditional love remains. He doesn't waiver at our falling short. But I can personally say, in that hour and a half He said so much in His tender mercies that brought me to a deeper repentance and greater sober-mindedness.
There is plenty more I am to share...but as He directs.
Draw near to Him now. There is no time to do it 'later'.
In Christ Alone,
Linda Ruby Edmiston
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